02 May 2008

Renwick formal (by request, and long overdue)

(CMAM is Catherine; EMM is Emmaline; RH is Renwick House)

April 24, 2008.

At about half four this afternoon, my preparations for the formal started to get underway in a lackadaisical fashion, compared to the racket in the room next door. Linsey, CMAM, and Heather were all in Linsey’s room, tittering, giggling, chattering about fluffy things, putting on makeup and fake tan, straightening and washing hair, and so forth. I went in and lounged against the wall, offering advice, and generally laughing at the chaos. At about six o’clock I trailed into our room and dressed. EMM came in. She’d gone home on the train at lunchtime, picked up the car, then picked up Alistair, and taken him to Mark’s house to get ready. I helped her and Rachel with safety pins for their dresses, and did my hair. At seven o’clock, people started to emerge from their rooms, and the others who were to be at the dinner—players on the football team, former residents, friends—started to arrive. The common room and stairwell were crowded, girls in their dresses, boys in slacks and jackets, everyone slightly nervous. Robert and Andy M. drove Rosemary and me to Barnaby’s. By now the afternoon storm had blown over, and the luminous evening sunshine slanted over the deep green fields, lighting every blade and leaf. At Barnaby’s, we had been assigned to a room on the ground floor—a medium-sized room, semi-circular, with windows all round, and five long wooden tables. Rich red carpet on the floor, dark paneling under the windows, black-and-white pictures of old sports teams on the walls. The boys made beelines for their own tables, and, partly as a result, we were soon segregated into tables—two tables of all boys, two mixed tables, and one table of all girls. People came in groups, in waves, by fours and fives, as carloads arrived. We had an absolutely lovely time. As people arrived, there was mixing at first, girls fluttering between tables in their dresses, taking pictures, exclaiming over each other’s outfits. Slowly people settled down. Phil stood and gave thanks, then the waiters brought out starters for those who’d ordered them. I was sitting between Lizzie and CMAM. Lizzie and Daphne, sitting across from each other, mostly talked to each other during the meal, giggling and making silly hyper jokes above (or below!) the rest of us. Heather, Linsey, Rosemary, Naomi, CMAM, and I chatted pleasantly through the meal. When the meal came, it was sumptuous. After dessert, Iwent over to chat with Michaela and Sarah W., to listen to Charlotte and CMAM tell funny stories, to see if EMM and Rachel (perched in one of the deep windowsill) needed help finalizing the powerpoint for the table quiz. Before the quiz, Phil stood up and got everyone’s attention. He handed out awards to the guys on the football team, making speeches with each one, and keeping everyone laughing with his dry, sometimes scathing, humor. After the awards were given out, some of them serious and some of them silly, Rachel split everyone into pre-determined teams. The segregation that had separated boys and girls earlier was thrown to the wind as everyone was put into different groups of five or six. I was with Heather, Allison, Andy L., and Steven. Rachel and EMM ran the quiz from EMM’s laptop. The staff of the restaurant had obligingly provided a screen for the projector. The first round was my picture round (Steven was disgusted that I couldn’t help). Then a music round, provided by Linsey off a CD used by her church for youth group games, then anagrams from names of residents and friends of RH. Then a Cranium round, each team given a card from the “star performer” box to act or sing or hum, and finally a football round with trivia from the past season. Our team came last, and I think the boys were a bit disgusted, but it was alright after all. After the quiz, of course, we had to have a round of pictures. We all milled around, but people eventually sorted themselves into rows, all of us short girls in the front, of course. Bob climbed on a table, while the boys cheered, and took pictures of us all—when Beulah asked him to take one on her camera, everyone booed. Then there was a RH picture, which Mark and Steven invaded, and then a RH girls’ picture, and a picture of the football team. After the pictures, we all stood around talking. The tables were a mess of papers and dishes. Michaela, Sarah W., and I took silly pictures, and CMAM took pictures, trying to finish her disposable camera. The waiters began to move about the room, clearing the dishes. We collected our belongings, said our thanks, and trailed out to the cars. The evening was cold, a taste of frost in the air. Just about everyone ended up back at RH. Rachel and Daphne had their black-and-white Halloween masks out, and Beulah screamed when she came through the door and saw them on the stairs. Everyone else laughed, though it was quite creepy to see them dressed up with the masks on. Mark, Rachel, and Beulah fixed tea for everyone. Emma had buns leftover from a camp meeting, Malteser and caramel and shortbread concoctions. I sagged onto the seats in the window with Naomi, CMAM, Linsey, and Rosemary, all of us exhausted. I finished my tea and pattered quietly upstairs to bed. Liney’s perfume, squirted on me and CMAM at the beginning of the evening just before we went out the door, lingered in the air even when I’d taken off the dress, sweet taste as I drifted off to sleep.

01 May 2008

studying so hard...

... that I'm seeing WHITE RABBITS!

20 April 2008

cu small group weekend

Now Playing: The Silver Chair by C.S. Lewis, dramatization by Focus on the Family Radio Theatre. Track 3, "The Signs".

We take a break from our regularly scheduled programming (i.e., writing essays) to bring you this special report, an episode from this past weekend, during which the CU small group Bible study that I'm in, with Rachel and Emmaline, went to Sheep Island View Hostel in Ballintoy for a weekend retreat. The MPC (maths-physics-computer science) small group is normally split into two groups, one that meets on Wednesday night and one that meets on Thursday night, but this weekend was a joint event.

April 19, 2008. This morning I woke up in my top bunk. The room was quiet. I always hate getting up first, so I waited until Allie got up. Allie is one of the leaders of the Wednesday night group, a lovely tall girl with luxurious straight strawberry blond hair. She went into the shower. I crawled out of my bunk and found Claire awake (not Claire W., but a girl who usually goes to the Wednesday night group, who looks like Laura's friend Michelle, and who is chirpy, friendly, and always ready to talk about anything and everything). Claire happily told me about her night: she and a group of others had gone out for a joyride to the beach at 2 a.m. We were sitting and laughing quietly about it when the sleeping bag bundled on one of the bottom bunks groaned and moved, and turned out to be a very sleepy Emmaline.

We got dressed in stages and were down in the kitchen for breakfast by ten o'clock or so. There were two other groups sharing the hostel this weekend, plus an assortment of French and Dutch travelers. After breakfast, Steve dismissed us to do our quiet times for forty-five minutes. I went outside, down the hill, across the little road, and to a bench at the edge of the fields facing north. Before me, two fields sloped down and up again, and where they sloped up, they ended, and beyond them was royal blue sea, flashing with waves. The morning was gorgeous: a bracing northeast wind, clear sunshine, aquamarine sky, gulls and rooks flying over the fields where tractors where plowing. Sheep and lambs grazed in a field nearby, and a small shaggy pony stood and watched from the field closest to me. I lasted about half-an-hour in the cold and brisk wind, and then retreated back into the hostel to finish my devotions in the deserted kitchen.

At half eleven, we grouped up in the common room of the hostel for our speaker, another Steven, a youth worker at Steve and Allie's church, to give us our second talk on the armor of God from Ephesians. We had a long discussion time, and then lunch.

After lunch, we eventually got ourselves sorted enough to get into cars and drive to Emmaline's family's farm to pick up things for the barbecue tonight. The afternoon was still lovely. When Emmaline was ready, we were split into four teams of three, and headed into Coleraine for our photo challenge--a scavenger hunt of sorts, though instead of taking pictures of objects, we were supposed to take pictures of ourselves doing a variety of crazy things. Claire, Emmaline, and I were together.

Our first stop was a little park in a green hollow in the town, near the main shopping area. Here we took a picture of us "hanging": Emmaline and Claire swinging upside-down from the monkey bars. Also, we took a picture of "upside-down": Claire holding me upside down by my feet while I did a handstand. "Hugging a tree" wasn't too difficult in a park. Then we walked on up the street into the central pedestrian shopping area. Here Emmaline and Claire ran into Topman so that I could take a picture of them posing "in a shop window". Emmaline stopped a man passing by to take a picture of the three of us "in a phone booth", and then Claire took a picture of Emmaline and me pretending to "sleep" on the edge of a planter. Emmaline and Claire both kept running into people they knew from school or church. Walking down toward the town hall, we noticed a group of soldiers picking up their equipment from a demonstration of some sort. Claire marched up to one of them and asked him for a picture; he, with good-humor, provided us with a picture of "someone in uniform". In down the street, Emmaline spotted a gift shop. "They're really nice in that shop," she said, so we popped in, and the two shopkeepers, both middle-aged women, were absolutely delighted to let us take a picture of us pretending to "work behind a counter". They then sent us down the street to a hairdresser's, where one of the girls in the salon pretended to cut Claire's hair for a picture of someone "getting a haircut".

Back out in the street, Claire and I took turns of each other "dancing". Emmaline and I practiced our two-hand reel in the middle of the street. We walked to the mall, where Emmaline found one of her school friends working in a shoe shop. She gleefully assisted us in our next challenge, a picture of us "buying something with shoes on our heads". Out in the mall again, Emmaline saw another of her school friends, a fluttery little girl, who took a "funny" picture of us sitting on a children's toy. In a bookstore a little further down, I took a picture of a "farmyard scene", composed of Emmaline and Claire holding up children's books about barn animals. Walking back to the car, we took a rather random picture of Claire and me, with our feet in plastic shopping bags, pretending to have a sack race, to satisfy the "winning a race" qualification.

On our way back to the car, we stopped in the park again. Emmaline asked a young man to take a picture of the three of us making a "pyramid", and then of the three of us "in midair", hanging from the swings on the swingset. We drove to another park where there was a fountain, and when we parked there, we asked a couple of boys who were hanging out near the car park to take a picture of us "in the boot of a car". There was a gazebo in the park, so Claire to our "scene from a movie" picture: Emmaline and me pretending to perform the sixteen-going-on-seventeen song from The Sound of Music. For our underwater picture, since we were running out of time, Emmaline went to the fountain in the park and stuck her head underneath it.

It was six o'clock, and the shops were beginning to close. On our way to the car, we found a shopping trolley outside Pound Stretchers, so I took our last photo, of Emmaline and Claire "in a shopping trolley".

Back at the hostel, we sat in the common room waiting for everyone else to come back. When everyone was back, we had our third talk. After the third talk, Rachel, Steve, Emmaline, and I went into the kitchen to collect the supplies for our barbecue. Allie and Matt went down to White Park Bay beach to start the fire. It took us awhile to get all the food together: Rachel and Steve had wisely decided to cook the meat first before we took it to the grill, but the ovens in the hostel were rather temperamental, so it took awhile.

Emmaline, Rachel, Steve, Nathan, and I drove down to the beach at last, at about half nine. The beach wasn't too far away--at least the car park wasn't, but the beach itself was a long walk down a steep hillside. We stood at the top of the hill staring out into the dark, trying to see the others, until finally we heard Phil shouting up at us faintly. We headed down the hill, slipping and tripping on odd flights of stairs cut into the hillside or on slippery patches. At last we found everyone else. The grill was set up in the lee of a ruined building, a house or church, its whitewashed bulk looming against the dark sky. In the east, above the crown of the hill, the full moon was rising through pale clouds. Faint stars were shining in the dark sky. Ahead of us, the dunes sloped down, overgrown with grass and furze, and the endless murmur of the sea hung on the edge of hearing. The ocean lay black beyond the dunes, the bulk of Rathlin Island dimly seen in the distance, its tip marked by the red flash of a warning beacon.

Of course in the shadow of the building it was pitch black, even as the moon shone more and more brightly. People brought out cellphones, and someone had a wind-up torch. Emmaline presided over the grill, while Phil and I brought out the meat in stages, and Rachel and Allie put the meat and buns together. No tables or anything, so Allie held the bowl of cheese and other condiments, while Rachel was in charge of the buns. We all huddled around the grill in a tight circle, as close to the warmth as we could get. Laughing, joking, general craziness: the cold night air seemed to have gone to everyone's heads. Someone had gone to buy drinks, and they handed around bottles of soft drinks since we'd forgotten to bring down cups. We ate the hot food right off the grill, sizzling and scorching our fingers. The wind curled around the corner of the building, kicking the sparks up into our faces, and making the grease drippings flare on the hot coals. The moonlight beyond the shadow of the building grew brighter and brighter. When everyone had had enough meat, Steve brought out bananas, marshmallows, and chocolate buttons in little aluminum foil packets, and put them on the grill. We toasted marshmallows, and when the desserts were cooked, we ate them hot off the gril, scraping the sticky mess out of the foil with plastic forks.

When we were done eating, everyone still stood around the warm fire. Laughing, talking, singing.... People tossed out campfire tunes, pop songs, snatches of hymns, lines from musicals, and joined in cheerfully (but tunelessly).

Eventually, Steve, Phil, and Rachel decided that it was time to go. Some of the boys went and got sand to use to douse the fire; the rest of us packed up the plastic bags with the remnants of our feast. The long trek up the hill to the cars seemed to last forever, winding up the hill on the pitted gravel road, hauling the bags, with the dark furze bushes on either side, and the moonlight making a lane between them. A couple of car-loads went on back to the hostel, but Emmaline, Rachel, Steve, and I waited around for Phil to come up from clearing up the grill. Nathan put on the dance music, and Emmaline and Rachel danced around the car park, their shadows sprawled ridiculously in the moonlight as they moved to the beat. We drove back to the hostel and sat around in the common room, where we looked at everyone's pictures from the afternoon. Lots of laughter, of course. Rachel's group, with Nathan and the two Stevens in it, had taken some absolutely ridiculous videos, and everyone clapped for Emmaline's underwater picture. "You're a living legend!" Rachel said. When we'd seen all the pictures, I went to bed. Claire and Emma (Wednesday night small group, second year; arrived this evening) came in, too, and whispered and giggled.

13 April 2008

it's that time of year again

Gone paper-writing!

12 April 2008

i love these pictures

Nathanael, Emmaline, me, and Stephen at the Giant's Causeway in Northern Ireland


Stephen and me outside the Natural History Museum in London

Thanks to my mother....

April 11, 2008

Now Playing: The Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring soundtrack by Howard Shore. Track 1, "The Prophecy". I always listen to this music when I need to think or work or sleep or run or just about anything else... some of the best in the world.

It's been an incredibly rough week, but I won't bore you with the details. Suffice it to say that through it all, God is good, quick to forgive, quick to pour out blessing unlooked-for. Take yesterday for an example:

Emmaline and I ate breakfast together for the first time in ages. She had bought pancakes yesterday, so we toasted one each, and after we ate ended up washing dishes and chatting. The counters were covered with dirty dishes, piled from last night. We washed them and stacked them in barely-balanced piles. After the dishes were done and the kitchen clean, I wrote in my journal and breezed out to ENG309 at ten o’clock. After class, I went to the gym to run. The day was lovely, and walking through the gardens I was struck by the beauty of bare branches against sky: smooth grey-green skin towering up against a blue so deep it was almost purple, with great white clouds moving behind. Robins, tits, and chaffinches singing in the forscythia bushes (see, mother dear, I'm putting that bird guide to good use).

I went running and then walked back to Renwick. Walking back through the gardens was delightful again, people out with their dogs, particularly a little white fluffy Snowy-type dog jogging along beside its mistress, looking very pert with its silky fur in the sunshine.

I showered in Renwick, went downstairs, and warmed up leftovers from last night for lunch. I was just curling up in a corner of the common room to eat and enjoy the banter before going upstairs to study (Naomi, Catherine, Ian, and lots of others were coming in and out) when Catherine blinked at me and said, "Oh, E--, I just sent Sarah up to your room!" Two seconds later, Sarah W. came in and said brightly, "E--, would you like to go to Cafe Renoir with us?" I stared at her, my lunch in my lap, blinked, reminded myself of a resolution I'd made to be more spontaneous (seems like a paradox, right?), and said, "Sure," with a laugh. The leftovers went right back into the fridge, to grow some unmentionable microorganisms, I'm sure, and I went upstairs to grab my jacket.

Sarah W. had one of the guys from her classes with her. The three of us walked down as far as Shaftesbury Square, where he went to a music store, and Sarah W. and I continued on to the city centre. We had a lovely time, just chatting lightly about this and that. The sun was shining and the afternoon was cool, though ahead of us the sky was a dark stormy grey: the greys and greens of the tall buildings, and the white spokes of the Belfast Eye, flashed against the clouds. As we were crossing the street by City Hall, it started to rain. Sarah W. had an umbrella, and I followed her through the maze of narrow pedestrian alleys behind Queen Street. She found the cafe, through a door, up a flight of stairs, and through another door--quiet, secluded, above the noise of the street, and mostly empty, only a few customers having early afternoon cups of tea.

She ordered a latte and a piece of cheesecake, and I (ravenous by now with the workout and long walk) ordered a vegetable wrap. We found a table in a quiet corner and talked. When the food came, it was good. The wrap was hot, full of colorful vegetables like a fiesta, and topped with fresh pesto. Sarah W. and I sat chatting away until Charlotte and Michaela joined us. They were both exhausted from having walked to the city centre with all their bags and books to carry home for the weekend. They ordered buns and drinks (buns/traybakes are the N. Irish equivalent of desserts, for those of you who don't know, and come in so many different forms and varieties that I couldn't begin to describe their deliciousness). We spent a lovely hour or so talking over silly things.

We went downstairs and back into the street. The afternoon had turned chilly. We stopped in the Faith Mission bookshop next door to see if I could find a copy of The Holiness of God. I was unsuccessful, but the other girls had great fun looking over the women's section. From there we walked through Castlecourt. A band was playing outside Castlecourt--brass, accordion, rattles, saxophone. We went down Queen Street, then ducked off into alleyways again until we found Victoria Square, the very fancy shmancy new shopping centre. One goes down a long, long flight of stairs from street level and finds oneself in a huge open atrium going up three or four stories, topped with a glass-and-metal fabric, with a dome in the middle. Shops stretch up on both sides so that one feels as though one is walking between narrow overhanging cliffs.

Sarah and Michaela had an errand to run in House of Fraser, so while they took care of that, Charlotte led me straight back to the little shop at the back of House of Fraser, Paperchase, that sells paper, cards, journals, pens, and such. On the way, we walked through gleaming glass shelves full of handbags and shoes, gasping at the prices on some of them. Charlotte showed me the journal she likes best in Paperchase, a teal journal with a red-purple-white design of flowers and birds on the front, rather like a stained glass window (in Rachel's words when she saw it later). Fine paper, beautiful lined pages. There were only two left: we bought one each.

When the other two girls returned, we went to Accessorize to look for things for the formal. Then the four of us said good-bye to each other. Charlotte and Michaela went to catch their bus, and Sarah W. and I walked back to Renwick, and we parted ways at City Hospital.

The early evening was again overcast. Just as I got into Renwick, it started to pour down rain. I found Rachel, Emmaline, and Catherine sitting in the common room, chatting, and I flopped down on the chairs next to Catherine to show her my new journal. Emmaline and Rachel were being fairly silly, keeping the four of us entertained.

Catherine and I were both getting hungry. Eventually, Emmaline said, "You know how I promised I'd make tea tonight? And you know how it's the weekend, and we're supposed to relax? And you know how I need more time to work? Can anyone else think of any more arguments?" (general laughter) "Well, I thought maybe I'd order Chinese tonight." I lay and laughed and laughed at her, and said yes of course. So we ordered Chinese, and pretty much spent the entire evening in the common room, joking around, talking, laughing, being silly. Rachel and Emmaline were funnier and funnier as the evening went on, and Catherine and I added our own spice of humor to the mix. Ian joined us to eat his tea, and sat on the chairs at the back of the room and laughed at the four of us.

When the Chinese came, Catherine split up the neatly-wrapped plastic boxes for each of us. After we finished eating our Chinese, we watched the Spider-man 3 DVD Emmaline had bought today. Ian had gone upstairs to bed. The four of us scooted chairs together, Rachel brought out blankets and pillows and sweets, and we sat in a row and watched the movie. About halfway through, we paused it, and Emmaline (whose foresight is quite amazing) brought out a tub of Ben & Jerry's chocolate fudge brownie ice cream to split between the four of us.

When the movie ended, we were all silly and hyper from the sugar, so the next natural activity for the evening was a lively pillowfight, started by Catherine tickling Emmaline, in which Catherine and Rachel whacked at Emmaline, and I whacked at them, and Emmaline whacked at everyone. After awhile, we settled down and sat and looked at pictures on Rachel's camera.

Putting her camera away, Rachel glanced around the room and moaned, "Oh, this place is a tip!" "Well, what will we do about it?" I asked, jumping up. The four of us went to work and had the room righted in a matter of minutes: pillows neatly piled, dirty dishes taken to the kitchen, chair straightened, rubbish thrown away, etc.

Quieter now, we sat in the common room chatting for awhile, though Catherine left at about half twelve. Rachel, Emmaline, and I sat on until half three.... We outstayed even the drunk people: the noises down the street from the club, the click of girls’ heels, the slurred male singing and shouts outside, all of it had died away into the eerie early morning silence.

I went to bed at last and was asleep before Emmaline came in at half four or so.

07 April 2008

for whom the bell tolls

Now Playing: Edward Elgar, "Enigma Variations".

I promised Catherine that I'd post this for her.



For whom the Bell Tolls
John Donne


From "Devotions upon Emergent Occasions" (1623), XVII: Nunc Lento Sonitu Dicunt, Morieris - "Now, this bell tolling softly for another, says to me: Thou must die."

PERCHANCE he for whom this bell tolls may be so ill, as that he knows not it tolls for him; and perchance I may think myself so much better than I am, as that they who are about me, and see my state, may have caused it to toll for me, and I know not that.
The church is Catholic, universal, so are all her actions; all that she does belongs to all.
When she baptizes a child, that action concerns me; for that child is thereby connected to that body which is my head too, and ingrafted into that body whereof I am a member.
And when she buries a man, that action concerns me: all mankind is of one author, and is one volume; when one man dies, one chapter is not torn out of the book, but translated into a better language; and every chapter must be so translated; God employs several translators; some pieces are translated by age, some by sickness, some by war, some by justice; but God's hand is in every translation, and his hand shall bind up all our scattered leaves again for that library where every book shall lie open to one another.
As therefore the bell that rings to a sermon calls not upon the preacher only, but upon the congregation to come, so this bell calls us all; but how much more me, who am brought so near the door by this sickness.
There was a contention as far as a suit (in which both piety and dignity, religion and estimation, were mingled), which of the religious orders should ring to prayers first in the morning; and it was determined, that they should ring first that rose earliest.
If we understand aright the dignity of this bell that tolls for our evening prayer, we would be glad to make it ours by rising early, in that application, that it might be ours as well as his, whose indeed it is.
The bell doth toll for him that thinks it doth; and though it intermit again, yet from that minute that this occasion wrought upon him, he is united to God.
Who casts not up his eye to the sun when it rises? but who takes off his eye from a comet when that breaks out? Who bends not his ear to any bell which upon any occasion rings? but who can remove it from that bell which is passing a piece of himself out of this world? No man is an island, entire of itself; every man is a piece of the continent, a part of the main.
If a clod be washed away by the sea, Europe is the less, as well as if a promontory were, as well as if a manor of thy friend's or of thine own were: any man's death diminishes me, because I am involved in mankind, and therefore never send to know for whom the bell tolls; it tolls for thee.
Neither can we call this a begging of misery, or a borrowing of misery, as though we were not miserable enough of ourselves, but must fetch in more from the next house, in taking upon us the misery of our neighbours.
Truly it were an excusable covetousness if we did, for affliction is a treasure, and scarce any man hath enough of it.
No man hath affliction enough that is not matured and ripened by it, and made fit for God by that affliction.
If a man carry treasure in bullion, or in a wedge of gold, and have none coined into current money, his treasure will not defray him as he travels.
Tribulation is treasure in the nature of it, but it is not current money in the use of it, except we get nearer and nearer our home, heaven, by it.
Another man may be sick too, and sick to death, and this affliction may lie in his bowels, as gold in a mine, and be of no use to him; but this bell, that tells me of his affliction, digs out and applies that gold to me: if by this consideration of another's danger I take mine own into contemplation, and so secure myself, by making my recourse to my God, who is our only security.

05 April 2008

a couple of days

Now Playing: Nathanael and Reuben on the computers. (And on my laptop, "Mother Gigogne and the Clowns" from The Nutcracker.)

April 3, 2008. After devotions, I had tea and toast for breakfast while I answered e-mails. I managed to clear my inbox out, and feeling accomplished, walked to the post office in dazzling sunshine to send away a scholarship letter to TU. Then I heated up soup for lunch and set to work on my ENG309 paper. The window was open, and the cool afternoon air came freshly into the room. I was working away happily, listening to Tchaikovsky. I finished my paper satisfactorily after a couple of hours and then went to the gym. The bowling green in the botanic gardens was dotted with people lying on blankets, kicking balls, or throwing frisbees. I spent about an hour in the gym. Then I walked back to Renwick, where Daphne and Catherine were sitting in the common room. It was the first time I'd seen either one of them all day. I brought down the book that my mother had left for Daphne--she was absolutely delighted with it. Catherine and I figured out how to work the DVD player, and she put on The Devil Wears Prada. Sarah W. and Emmaline came back from their afternoon's outings and invited all of us to Sarah's house for tea, though Emmaline didn't have room in her car for us. So I took a shower and walked down the Donegall Road alone. The evening was becoming cool, but still clear, with the spring crispness. Children were sitting outside on the kerb on the girls' street, playing games on the sidewalk. Emmaline let me in. She, Michaela, Sarh W., Calvin, and Matt were all in the kitchen. Sarah W. had invited Calvin and Matt over for tea since Calvin is her cousin. The boys were being incredibly silly. The pair of them could go into stand-up comedy. Calvin had made it his goal to make Emmaline mad since he likes her "cross" face--and between the two of them, he and Matt were doing a fairly good job, while Michaela, Sarah W., and I laughed at the boys (who were being incorrigible) and at Emmaline (who was trying to hold her temper and seeing the ridiculousness of the situation at the same time). We ended up ordering from a kebab shop for tea. The girls all ordered chicken tikkas; the boys both ordered kebabs. Emmaline had to go to a meeting, but when the food came, the rest of us wedged together at the kitchen table and ate. It was good: the chicken wrapped in thick Indian bread, with cinnamon and curry spices on it. After tea, I went back to Renwick. I opened my window again to the evening, and sat down for a Skype call with Mr. Carroll: my own session visitation. After an hour (a very packed hour), we signed off, he joking to the very end that he won’t believe I’m coming back to the States until he actually sees me in church. “I was nearly enchanted by those Irish myself,” was his last word. Anyhow, I packed my things and went downstairs. Catherine and Andy L. were talking in the common room, so I sat with them for awhile. At about ten o'clock, I said good-night and walked back to the girls' house. Matt answered the door, and of course wouldn't let me in, so Michaela had to do the job for him. Michaela and I spent about an hour sitting in the two armchairs in the living room, watching Calvin, Matt, and Sarah W. watch videos on their mobile phones. Michaela and I were both too sleepy to interact much, and the other three were having way too much fun together to try to rouse us. Emmaline came back from her meeting at about eleven-thirty. She, Sarah W., Calvin, Matt, and I squeezed into her little car. Emmaline drove Calvin, Matt, and Sarah W. home, in that order. Until we left Matt home, we had his iPod to keep us amused, though: he and Calvin would change the song about every thirty seconds, so though we never got to hear the end of anything, there was plenty of variety, everything from Justin Timberlake to Bob Marley, and a whole spectrum of dance and pop in between. Sarah W. and Emmaline heaved a collective sigh when the boys were out of the car, and Sarah found Emmaline's MP3 player--we were treated to selections from Princess Diaries and the new Pride and Prejudice on the drive to Ballymoney. After we dropped Sarah off, I moved to shotgun, and Emmaline and I chatted all the way home. The house was dark and quiet when we got back. We both went to bed, but we stayed up talking for awhile, again.

April 4, 2008. Woke early this morning to the usual noise of everyone getting ready to go to school. It seemed as though almost all the other kids had to poke their heads into Emmaline's room for one reason or another before they left. Emmaline and I didn't get up until later. After Emmaline's alarm went off, she went downstairs, but I dressed and sat quietly in her room, doing my devotions. The two of us ate breakfast in the little room. Emmaline managed to find something decent on TV, a couple of programs about how to refurbish a house, which made good background noise while she worked on her impossible paperclip puzzle and I worked on a birthday present. The morning was rainy, grey waves of mist so thick that even the sea was hidden. We spent the morning quietly, and at the usual late dinner. Emmaline and I cleared away and were back in the little room in time to watch Diagnoses Murder. When the show finished, Mr. M rang Emmaline to get her to come outside and wash the cars, so she and I pulled on wellies and leggings and went out into the crisp sunshine. The rain was gone, only a few grey clouds left, and the sun on the concrete walls of the sheds was richly warm. Emmaline and I washed her blue car, then her dad's grey jeep, then the silver family minivan. Massey watched us nervously, disliking the water. Behind us, in the parlor, the afternoon milking had begun: the rhythmic swish and click of the machines, Darius's voice calling the cows on, the warm, slightly acidic smells of dung and sour milk and hay. Emmaline and I worked in silence on either side of the car, sloshing soapy water and scrubbing at muck on hubcaps. A few rooks circled overhead, cruising to brown fields where the dark earth has been ploughed. A breeze came up and stirred the bobbing heads of the daffodils in the garden behind the house, just down the little hill. When we finished the three cars, we went inside, cleaned up, and drove to Tesco to buy groceries. The two of us were in charge of tea tonight, and we made Emmaline's special: honey-orange-glazed chicken and sweet potatoes. While the vivid afternoon sunshine faded into cool blue shadows in the farmyard, Emmaline and I worked away, slicing sweet potatoes, preparing the sauce, segmenting the oranges, putting chips in to fry and vegetables on to boil. It took awhile for everything to be ready, and then, just when the table was set and the hot food was all out, and we had all come to the table and were ready to say thanks, someone looked out the back window and announced, "Cows are out!" So Mr. M, Nathanael, Emmaline, and Reuben dashed outside to chase the cows back into the sheds, while Eleanor, Erin, and Mrs. M asked me polite questions about the trip to London. When everyone was settled again, we gave thanks and ate--a good meal. For dessert there was "insta whip": for you Americans who have never savored this delight, imagine something between chocolate pudding and chocolate icing, only fluffier, like cool whip. Very sweet, but good with M&Ms. :o) After dessert we cleared the table and washed the dishes. Then I went in to sit by the fire and keep working on the birthday present. Reuben was in there, watching X-Men, but he and Emmaline went for a bike ride, leaving me by the fire, absorbed in my work. Outside, the deep jewel blues and greens of evening faded into night, and Mrs. M came in and closed the curtains. Reuben and Emmaline came back in time to see the climax of the film, the two of them tumbled together on the couch like a pair of puppies while Nathanael sat beside me and borrowed my brush pens to color a picture of a tractor. When the movie ended, Mr. M joined us, and found an old spaghetti Western on TV. When the boys were sent up to bed, I went out, too. Emmaline was upstairs, reading. We went straight to sleep.

01 April 2008

pictures from Easter break travels

Belfast, Dublin, Coleraine, London
Having already been white-rabbited by my thoughtful aunt, I can at least get the rest of you.

WHITE RABBIT!

21 March 2008

day 3

Now Playing: S on his handheld American football game.

March 20, 2008. We all woke up early today, up by six-thirty, dressed, ate breakfast, and fixed lunches. Then we walked down to Europa to catch the bus to Dublin. The day was grey and cloudy, long low rollers of cloud streaming down over Cave Hill. We got the eight o'clock bus. The ride took three hours: long, dull, and rather uncomfortable since the bus was too warm. S and I were both queasy. We drove through Banbridge and Newry, and across the border, where the bus was stopped by the gardai. They're on a manhunt right now, so they asked everyone for id before letting us continue on the way: through endless green fields, little tumbled farmsteads, hedges running crooked and crossways everywhere, tiny villages, pubs and shopping centres and churches.

The bus stopped at Dublin Airport, then went on. We went through the Docklands, which are bustling with construction. Forests of cranes hanging over quickly-rising state-of-the-art buildings, webbings of glass and steel blossoming from concrete ground. The bus left us at Dublin Busaras, bustling with lines of people waiting to board, and we walked from there to O'Connell Street. Crowds of people, of course--my lasting impression of Dublin is of people, hurrying everywhere. Dubliners singly, and little knots of tourists together. All kinds of languages, French, Dutch, Russian, and dialects of English from Great Britain and America.

We boarded a city sightseeing bus, one of the open-top buses, for a tour around the city. We ate our lunch on the bus. A man happened to sit down beside S who was from Texas (his accent left me without a doubt), and he immediately began to discuss OSU football with S while the bus left its stop and trundled through the crowded streets. Past the Millenium Spire, shining in the thinly-falling mizzle; across the River Liffey; and to the stop at Trinity.

We got off at Trinity and walked through the dark dirty archway into the courtyard. Full of people. I was munching a pear from lunch, the sweet juice filling my mouth as we dandered across the courtyard. We went to the library to see the Book of Kells exhibition. Through the giftshop, then into the exhibition itself. The dimly-lit honeycomb of displays was crowded with people. We looked at ogham stones, Gospel books, Ethiopian carrying cases, video displays about book-making. I read over little poems and riddles about writing printed on the walls, savoring the strong alliteration of translated Old English and the sweet interlaced rhymes of Irish.

At last we reached the inner room, the books themselves: the Book of Kells in two volumes, the Book of Armagh, and another volume. The Book of Kells was open today to a passage from Luke and to the portrait of St. John, with the initial of his Gospel. I bent over the beautiful outspread pages, studying the intricate painting, the gold leaf and bright colors intertwined. Like the interweavings of a dream, ever more detailed, the patterns leading the eye inward further and further to be lost in leaves and faces and sinuous woven bodies.

After the Books, we climbed the stairs to the Long Room. More people in here than the time when I visited it before: the silence of the room was diminished, though the great wooden vault hanging above the crowds of people preserved its aloofness, its complete silence. Shelves and racks of brown-backed books marching down either side, and the eyeless white busts of dead authors and philosophers, and the old wooden bog harp mutely preserved in its glass case.

We went downstairs into the crowd and noise and heat of the gift shop. Then we went outside and took pictures of the buildings, and got back on the bus finally. We rode the bus around, past all the sights, until we got to St. Patrick's Cathedral, and there we got off. The cathedral is another Norman building, though more on Gothic lines than Christchurch, longer and leaner. Still square, though, still the squat blank walls, the clerestory line blocked with stone. Most of the windows had no stained glass, though at the ends of the cruciform shape of the cathedral, the greatest windows were stained: pictures from St. Patrick's life mostly. The floor underfoot was tiled in patterns with red, orange, green, and brown, carefully glazed and tessellated.

On the aisles down either side of the nave were monuments to various past deans of the cathedral, to lords and ladies, to soldiers who had fallen in war. The grave of Jonathan Swift was there. Dusty flags hung from the walls above the monuments, some of them black and war-torn, so burned that their insignias could no longer be read. Most of them, though, were simply faded, the reds, blues, and golds crumbling into dust. The choir stalls at the front of the cathedral still had the banners of the Knights of St. Patrick's hanging above them, together with the ceremonial helms and swords.

We walked around, looking at all the curios preserved in the cathedral: the door that had been hacked through by two warring parties when the leader of one risked his arm to make a truce; the Huguenot bell; the eagle-winged lectern; the pulpit with its statues of the Apostles; the stone statues standing over graves.

After awhile, we got back on the bus, and rode it around to the end of its circuit, past the Guiness brewery, Kilmainham Gaol, Phoneix Park, the National Museum, the Hugh Lane Gallery, and Parnell Street. At the end, we got off the bus. S wanted to go back to Belfast, so we went to the bus station to catch the four o'clock bus.

We had half-an-hour, so we sat and waited in the station. Pigeons walked around under the benches where we sat, their heads bobbing back and forth. At last our bus began to board. It was very crowded, completely full up. S and I sat side-by-side. He listened to the "Myst" soundtrack on his MP3 player, and I read The Return of the King, through the glorious chapters about the last battles and the cracks of doom. The city gave way to green fields, and the green fields gave way to the dark misty slopes of the Mournes. The sun was setting, and clouds were flowing down over the steep heaths and moors.

The bus got caught in a traffic jam in the foothills of the Mournes, outside Newry. We sat and sat as the bus inched forward. I stared out the window at the dark slopes going darker as night fell, at the dim peaks behind the ridged hills. At last we reached Newry and crawled through it, then drove more quickly to Belfast. It was still another hour, though. The moon rose over tree-crowned ridges and green fields, staring palely through thin clouds.

Back in Belfast, we walked back to RH. The wind was bitterly cold and strong, whipping my hair over my face. I made sweet-and-sour chicken for us for dinner. It was eight-thirty by the time we were sitting down to eat. After dinner, M and I sat with Daphne in the common room for awhile, helping her procrastinate. Then we went upstairs, took showers, and went to bed.

19 March 2008

days 1 and 2

Now Playing: Snow Patrol, "Chasing Cars".

March 18, 2008. Woke up alert even before my alarm went off at six o’clock. I dressed, did my devotions, ate a quick breakfast, then walked down to Europa. It was sprinkling, but to the west over Cave Hill, a rainbow shimmered against the dark clouds. I took the bus to the airport. At the airport, I waited and waited…. The plane M and S were on was delayed fifteen minutes, and of course then they had to go through customs, etc. But at last I saw them coming up the sterile corridor through the international arrivals door, and it was good to see them again, familiar. M a bit greyer, S a lot taller. We walked out to the bus stop and took the bus back to Belfast. M chatted away: all about people in Stillwater, about how the family is doing, about the things we saw out the window as we passed from green Antrim countryside to outskirts to the centre of Belfast, about people in the church, and so on. From the bus station we trundled to RH. The way seemed endless, hauling the suitcases along the rutted uneven pavement. In RH, I fixed lunch for them at about half eleven in the kitchen.

While I was fixing lunch, Daphne came in, and as we were going up the stairs after lunch, we ran into Daphne, Rachel, Catherine, and Amy, and ended up talking to them on the landing for awhile. Rachel regaled us with the account of her adventures yesterday, keeping all of us laughing; Catherine and Amy joked about going to Victoria Square, and Rachel warned them jokingly to stay away from the buttons. After they went on about their afternoon’s affairs, M, S, and I walked to Tesco to get groceries. Then I took them on a tour of Queen’s and the Gardens: down Elmwood Avenue, past the church houses, the colorful doors, The Parlor, and Elmwood Centre where the Ulster Orchestra practices; past the Student Union, across the street, past the winged war memorial and through the doors of the Lanyon Building, where the great stained glass window shone down at us with Courage, Wisdom, Alma Mater, Temperance, and Justice. Then out onto the quad, where a saucer magnolia tree and two bush-sized star magnolias were blooming with elegant poise; under the colonnade, past the library and tower, along University Square, and down facing Union College, where a wedding party was being photographed on the grand stairs out front.

Then past behind the School of Music and Seamus Heaney library, and into the grounds of the Gardens by the side gate I always take to the gym. We walked along that way. Kids were playing soccer on the green lawn, and robins sang in the trees. We walked down around up past the rose gardens, pruned back and bare, then up past the lush bed of daffodils shining like a galaxy on the south-facing slope of the hill, and into the Tropical Ravine. Quiet in there: the endless green silence of leaf on leaf, still patterns of fronds and fiddleheads against the water-stained glass ceiling, cycads and palms, bananas and guavas, bromeliads and pitcher plants growing in a riotously patterned green brocade. Down to the fish ponds where orange koi glowed like comets in the black water under the duckweed, under archways of Spanish moss, smelling the tropical scents—camellia flowering in bushes.

Then outside into the chill again, and over to the Palm House. Here we found the wing full of bulbs, pots arranged theatrically to make long straight arenas of yellow and cream climbing above magenta and pink cyclamens. S and I smelled the cyclamens, a cleanly sweet smell. We walked around in that House for awhile, looking at the strange dry weather plants, cactuses and palms. Then back outside. We walked down to the city centre, but M was tired before we reached Castlecourt or the Cathedral, so we turned and walked back up to RH. In RH, I fixed a cup of tea for M, and we sat and talked. At about six o’clock I went down to the kitchen to fix curry for tea. When I came back upstairs, both of them were asleep. M woke when I opened the door, though. They helped me bring the food upstairs, and the three of us ate in our room. When we finished, M helped with the dishes. She, S, and I were getting ready to fish the ice cream out of the freezer when Ian came in. We talked with him for awhile. After he went out, we had dessert. Then I ran down to the common room to ask Phil to borrow a DVD for S to watch. Phil accommodated us with quite a selection. S chose Ocean’s Eleven, and he, M, and I spent the evening watching that.

March 19, 2008. M and S were both asleep at eight forty-five when I woke up. I collected my Bible and journal and crept downstairs to the common room, where I sat with my back to my heater and did my devotions. God was very good this morning, and gave me peace there, even as I prayed for it, with His rich promises. Liz came into the room to vaccuum at about half nine, so I went back upstairs. S was sitting in the bay window, reading, but M was still asleep. She slept until ten o'clock. The three of us ate breakfast, then picked ourselves up and walked to the bus stop at City Hospital. We took the bus into the city centre, and from there took a double-decker bus up the Antrim Road.

The day was mostly sunny, white clouds coming down over the sky, long branching wings like swimming dragons. We drove up Shankill Road, dilapidated estates and newly remodeled flats side-by-side. The bus driver obligingly let us off right at the stop at the foot of the lane to the Belfast City Zoo. From there we walked, up the road as it zig-zagged across the face of Cave Hill, the boulders of the hill jutting against the sky above us. Crows were circling over empty air, and as we reached the top, we could look southeast across the Antrim hills, sloping down dotted with yellow furze and criss-crossed with hedges, then crowded with brown roofs of houses, to Belfast Lough. I've never been able to see so far before: the Lough lay flat and blue under the sky, with a few trawlers on it, and on the far horizon, shimmering on the edge of sight, a line of dun and blue hills--the tip of Scotland, perhaps.

We paid at the makeshift zoo entrance (the main entrance is being redone), and walked into the zoo. It was quite a nice middle-sized zoo, strung along the hillside. We walked past an enclosure where white pelicans, swans, geese, and seagulls were paddling on thick green water, and we also passed a variety of ungulates, deer and bucks grazing placidly. We could hear sea lions and found them eventually, passing a pair of spectacled bears on the way. The sea lions were being fed and making a tremendous racket while they were at it: the huge bull male yarked and barked as the keeper tried to get him to obey the whistled commands. There were at least eight sea lions in the big pool, some of them gliding through the water, others sitting on ledges at the water's edge. I always find sea lions mesmerizing: the grace, speed, and fluid power of the animals as they propel themselves through the water, the sinuous curves of their bodies echoing the liquid rhythm of the water as it parts around them.

Penguins were nearby, a colony of very funny-looking little South African penguins with their odd ear tufts, flapping through the water. Walking on, S and I spotted a pair of red pandas curled high in the branches of a tree. M insisted that they were trying to imitate parasitic growths on the tree. They certainly were sound asleep. In the next enclosure we found three or four Barbary lions, regal creatures, half-asleep in the warm sunshine. Smaller than the usual African lions, and more stocky. A little further on we came to a pen where a lion cub and an akita were living together--a sign explained that the cub had had a bad mother and so was being raised with the akita for companionship. While we watched, the two of them started to playfight, the dog nudging the cub, and the cub pawing at the lion. It was ridiculous to watch: the cub, longer from tip to tail than the dog, sprawled on its back like a silly housecat, or creeping along, belly-down, and then pouncing on the dog, while the dog shook itself good-naturedly.

Going on up the hill, we walked past a couple of monkey cages: tamarinds, gorillas, chimpanzees, all with spectacular views southeast. At the top of the hill we found several picnic tables, and since it was already half one, we decided to eat lunch. The wind at the top of the hill was crisp and cold, but we sat in the sun and ate the sandwiches we'd packed. A gloriously splendid male peacock strutted around our table, begging unashamedly. The sun rippled luxuriously over its iridescent feathers, living blues and greens, its tail swishing on the ground like a woman's silk skirts. M tossed the crumbs from her bag of crisps to it.

After lunch, we walked down the hill. We found an enclosure with pygmy marmosets inside--tiny monkeys the size of a man's fist (plus tail), clinging to the wire of their cage, sunning themselves. They made a noise like a colony of tiny birds, cheeping and chirping to each other. One of them had gotten out, and M found a keeper to ask about it--apparently, it's been loose for quite awhile, so delicate that it would require a lot of care to catch.

We saw the gorillas being fed. Their cage was nearby. They sat, strangely human, against the glass inside their house, staring sadly back at us as they munched their celery and carrots. Their long strong arms drooped over their paunchy chests.

We walked on down the hill again, retracing the way we'd been before in order to find the otters. On the way, we went past the sea lions again. Most of them were asleep at the edge of the pool, lying rolled together like brown cigars. One of them was asleep standing up on a ledge near the water. It swayed back and forth, absolutely ridiculous, its eyes shut, a smug self-satisfied smirk on its whiskered face. The sun came out, and it rocked back and forth, so sound asleep that it almost tipped over. It shuffled forward, sniffed, and swayed, all with its eyes shut. M, S, and I stood and laughed at it.

We found the otters just across the way, a pair of small Asian otters. They were tumbling and playing with each other. Down the hill we found an enclosure of prairie dogs--not very well enclosed, as it turned out; they'd burrowed most of their little knoll even outside the walls of their pen. Fat, moth-eaten, and self-confident, grazing the grass. We walked through an aviary where egrets, wood ducks, and exotic pigeons made the air positively feathery: the graceful idealized silhouettes of birds in flight, and the endless bubbling rhythms of bird calls, of egrets crying to each other and pigeons burbling contentedly.

From there we walked around in another loop to see the giraffes and elephants. They were all inside while their enclosures were being cleaned, except for one elephant, which was being trained to stand and raise its trunk. We watched for awhile. Outside the elephant house, we found a pair of meerkats, inquisitive, friendly little beasts. As we stepped into the elephant house, the combination of smells and sounds reminded me strangely vividly of Noah's ark. On the left was a long enclosure full of giraffes. Their hooves brushed and swished in a deep bed of straw on the concrete floor. They were eating, drinking, moving about, strangely graceful--reminding me of sea serpents, somehow, with their long necks. On the right was an enclosure with three elephants. One of them was drinking, slurping water out of a trough and squirting it forcefully into its mouth, then flicking up bundles of hay to eat. At the far end was an enclosure of zebras, stamping and snorting, with a small stall full of ostriches off to one side. We spent awhile in there. Somehow it was relaxing to watch the animals, themselves relaxed, as they ate and simply existed. So many of them, healthy, well-fed, looking back at us. One of the keepers was out walking around, and he stopped to chat with a couple of other keepers--we eavesdropped as he told stories about healing impossible wounds on giraffes' legs and making sure that elephants were properly paired.

It was getting late, half three, and the zoo closed at four. We walked up to see the monkeys--coatis and langurs, then down to try to find the tapir, but it was out-of-sight. So we walked down to the bus stop and took the first bus back to the city centre. We walked around a little bit in the city centre, making a stop by Tesco (the strange one that looks as though it ought to be a Victorian concert hall from the second story, but on the first story is a normal grocery store) and the cathedral. Then we took the bus back to RH.

With M's help, I fixed chicken and mashed potatoes for tea. Andy L. was in the kitchen at the same time, and he and M talked away about Sweden, where they've both been before, and about the Queen, who apparently visited Queen's University today.

M, S, and I had our tea, and afterwards we walked over to Clement's. There was the usual queue of students outside the Union, waiting to get into the bars, but we walked past the bouncers and inside. M and S did seem a bit out-of-place in the coffee shop, but it was good to be there, with the familiar smells and the familiar music. S and I had milkshakes, and M had tea, and we split a couple of cookies, and sat and talked. M talked about people at home and asked endless questions about the history of Ireland; I asked S about his sea monkeys and the prospects of having a goldfish.

When we left the coffee shop at about nine o'clock, the full moon was shining down through a thin veil of yellow cloud. We walked back to RH. S and I took showers while M checked her e-mails and chatted with Logan(on) on my laptop. Then M took a shower. S went to bed, on EMM's airmattress, under a sleeping bag and a couple of blankets. M still tiptoes about, brushing her hair.

12 March 2008

so life goes on

Now Playing: Sky Sports on common room TV.

I wrote up yesterday’s entry, etc., this morning. Went to ENL204, chatted with Carmen before class started, and with Professor M after tutorial—he cheerily asked me if I were going home, and said I must be enjoying myself. I went back to the house and spent an hour or so talking with Loganon Skype. I went downstairs for communal lunch at one o’clock. We had soda bread pizzas today. A fair number of people came, some boys for the football match, some girls just to hang out, Beulah, Pamela, and Naomi. Outside, the sunny morning had become an incredibly blustery afternoon. Patches of luminous daffodil-translucent sunshine alternated with nearly horizontal gale-blown rain. The boys had a football match at half two, and Rosemary, Beulah, Naomi, Sarah W., Sarah R., Emmaline, and I went to watch. Joel and Abigail came toward the end.

Standing at the edge of the pitch, watching the match, we were miserable. The wind scoured down over the fields from the northwest: when it wasn’t raining, it lashed our hair over our faces and struck straight through our coats; when it was raining, it drenched the backs of our legs and turned our umbrellas inside out. The boys were playing the Church of Ireland team, which they’d been sure to beat, but they ended up being crushed, 3-0. It was pretty discouraging. The pitch was sodden, the mud stinking, and they were soon plastered on cheeks and arms with smears of grey mud. During halftime, Sarah W., Sarah R., and I sheltered in Emmaline’s car. I was so chilled that I crawled back in again a couple of times. Sarah R. and I spent most of the second half standing pressed side-by-side, shivering. The great dark clouds blew over, and for awhile there was a rainbow spanning the green pitches in an iridescent arc. The available sky was a vivid blue, and a flock of gulls spun and circled over the green grass, white wings flashing in the brief intense sunshine.

After the match, we all crawled back to the house and sheltered in the common room. I was cold right through. I sat in the bay window beside Emmaline, doing my ENL204 homework, while Andy M. helped her with a French translation. She went upstairs to talk on the phone with Alistair; I went into the kitchen to fix tea. I was feeling rather like a limp rag. I went out to buy cheese; when I came back, Emmaline took a look at me, took the cheese, and went into the kitchen to finish making tea, while I went upstairs and slept for half-an-hour. When she called me, I was groggy but feeling better. She had everything sorted downstairs. The two of us ate and chatted. Sarah W. and Heather came in, and we talked with them.

At half seven, Heather, Emmaline, and I drove to Trinity for the last of Pastor D’s three talks. We were late, of course, and of course Emmaline marched up to the front of the church so that she and I could sit beside Catherine Donnelly while she ran the powerpoint presentation. The talk was good. We didn’t stay too long afterward. Emmaline, Heather, and I looked at the bookstalls, and then Emmaline and I drove back to the house. We took a slight detour, but had great fun talking rubbish most of the way about fruit and plans for spring break and the weekend and such.

Back at the house, we ended up in the common room with Steven, Johnny, Ian, Beulah, Rosemary, and Rachel, just sitting around. The TV was on Sky Sports’ match-of-the-day. Beulah was taking people’s blood pressure. Rachel, Rosemary, and Beulah had made tea, and Rachel had a plate of buns for everyone. Emmaline had warmed up a bowl of sweet potato casserole, which she let Rachel try. Beulah explained to Rachel, Emmaline, and me the mysteries of taking blood pressure.

Now Ian and I are sitting in the common room, working on our laptops. There’s a whole flock of people out in the hallway, laughing, talking, and making a huge ruckus.

Johnny wants to be mentioned in this post, so here goes: Currently he and Samuel are watching an incredibly stupid show on Emmaline's laptop here in the common room. As Emmaline said, it's funnier to watch them watching it than to watch it.

Scottish ABCs and pudding party

Scottish ABCs and pudding party


08 March 2008

Scottish ABC's

Now Playing: Susie reading aloud to me King Ottokar's Sceptre, a Tintin comic strip adventure by Herge. She's sitting in the huge leather armchair in the living room with a pale purple scarf wrapped around her head.

Arrived safely here in Airdrie last night to visit the Spitlers for the weekend. I slept in Rachel's room at the very top of the house under the steeply-slanting roof, with the skylight looking out toward Glasgow above the bed. This morning I woke up at seven o'clock under the white duvet, with rain rattling on the glass pane above me. I dressed, wrote in my journal, and did my devotions while the rest of the household woke up. We had breakfast, cereal and crumpets, sitting at the table in the expansive kitchen. Crumpets are a new experience to me, despite my months in the U.K.: a round, honeycomb-like pastry, soft, and best served warm so that the butter melts through all the little holes. After we ate breakfast, we threw together packed lunches. While Mr. and Mrs. S took care of things, I sat in the living room with the girls. Sis bounced off the walls; Hannah did Rachel's hair; Rebekah and I inspected the calendars hanging on the living room walls. LOTR, "Dr. Who", and Oklahoma.

Our day began as we set out from Airdrie at about half nine. The Spitlers have a silver almost-minivan car, seating seven. We had to fold up the very back seats for Sis and Rebekah; Hannah, Rachel, and I squeezed into the middle bench. Mrs. S, in the front seat, turned on "Becky", the GPS navigating system, and with Mr. S at the wheel we headed out from Airdrie in the direction of Linlithgow. Since the Spitlers have already visited Linlithgow, our destination was Blackness Castle, beyond Linlithgow on the Firth of Forth.

At Becky's directing, we set out on a maze of country roads. "I love British B roads," Mrs. S groaned as the lanes twisted haphazardly through fields or dived suddenly down little hills. We drove past a grey loch with dark wind-kicked waters, through open moors, where last year's grass bent brown and dun under the wind, then into more tended areas, green fields full of woolly sheep. Through small villages, through Linlithgow itself, and beyond. Blackness Castle wasn't too much further: standing out on a peninsula of land jutting into the Firth, surrounded by broad mudflats. The tide was out. Two sailboats sat stranded, keels cut upright into the bank, brown seaweed around them. It began to rain hard as we pulled into the castle cark park.

The proprietor in the little tourist shop was very cheerful and friendly, and let me in for free since my friends were friends of Scotland (or something like that). He rattled off the history of the castle in a broad Scottish accent. Then we went to explore the castle. Cold rain poured down over us as we crossed the green garth, went through a low deep tunnel, and came out in the castle courtyard. The rock of the cliff-boss on which the castle sits jutted up raggedly through the uneven paving stones, stones gleaming polished grey-green in the rain. We clambered all over the keep, from ground floor to roof, and then all over the main tower, exploring the kitchen, great hall, armories, cellars, dungeons, bedrooms, and storerooms. I found a hole in one of the walls just big enough for me to crawl into. Up and down the narrow spiral staircases, treading carefully on the treacherous foot-smoothed stones. In the massive thick walls we found holes for canons to shoot through, holes bored through walls at least ten feet thick.

We walked around the parapets, the rain sheeting into our faces and trickling over the stones. The tide was coming in, brown water washing deeper and deeper over the seaweed and shining mud beaches. On either side of the castle promontory, deep bays jutted back, and on their far sides were wooded arms flung out from the coast, trees black against the grey sky. On the far side of the firth we could see shipyards, white cranes standing over docks. A big bridge swung in long pointed curves, crossing the water. We went out on the jetty that runs from the castle into the firth. The boards were slippery, and there was a strong sea-smell. The rain pelted us, cold and heavy, and so at last, having made thorough tour of the castle, we went back into the little gift shop to dry off.

After Blackness Castle, Mr. and Mrs. S decided to take us next to Campbell Castle. As we set off again, the rain lifted and the sun came out. Mrs. S produced a bag of toffees in white papery wrappers, and for awhile the car was full of the sound of contented sucking. Our route took us across the flatlands and up into the foothills of the Highlands. Campbell Castle is strikingly situated in a narrow valley, perched like a great grey hawk on the brink of the steep brown fells. Behind it rise the Highlands, height on height, brown shaggy masses like huge brooding animals guarding the margins of a known world.

A narrow road took us halfway up to the castle, and when we stopped in the car park, we had our lunch. The wind came blowing chill and strong over the great hills behind us, and us girls clustered together, shivering in the lee of the car while we ate our sandwiches and crisps. Somehow the penguins we'd brought along seemed appropriate.

After lunch we walked to the castle: down the side of the valley, over a creek running fast and full from the heights above, then up the spur of rock where the castle sits, at the point where two valleys come together. A huge oak tree stood in front of it. The castle gate was rather unimpressive, low and squat. As we entered, the rain lifted and the sun came out, the peculiar dramatic daffodil-brightness of Scottish sunshine after rain, glancing off the wet grey stones. We explored the terraced gardens behind the castle, where saxifrage, snowdrops, arum, and crocuses were beginning to bloom. One of the girls found a little path leading to an overlook in the woods just behind the castle, where we could stand on a wooden platform above the creek from the other valley as it plunged through the steep ravine below.

We climbed all over the castle again, of course. The south wing was roofless, the great hall standing open to the sunshine. But the main tower still had its roof, and in one of the big barrel-vaulted rooms, on the plank floor, Hannah did some of her Irish step dancing, her feet beating the wooden floor so that the whole tower thundered like a great drum. Mr. S took Sis around the castle on a quest to fill out a quiz about the castle's architecture and history, trying to sort out when Mary, Queen of Scots had visited the castle, and what a "loggia" was. Up and down, spiral stairs, halls, bedrooms, latrines. Old wall closets turned into entry areas when the staircases had been moved in the 1600s. Stone faces used as lamp embrasures carved into a ribbed, vaulted ceiling, their flowing hair and beards rippling out to melt into the stone again. Odd pointed windows for archers. Window seats carved into little alcoves under windows deep-set in the walls.

Rachel and I climbed up to the very top, where a walkway ran around the edge of the pointed roof. We could see out into the valley, with the firth shining on the edge of sight. On either side of us the big shoulders of the fells came down steeply, brown backs outflung. Rain was coming down over them again. Climbing down the last flight of spiral stairs, we found ourselves back out in the courtyard. In the sunny porch under the old carved pillars, a man was sitting with his dog. The dog wagged its tail at us, pricking its ears, and then rolling in foolish pleasure on its back in the sun as the man scratched its belly. Mrs. S grinned.

We left the castle as it began to rain again. With map in hand, Mr. S led us on a public path up onto the right (east) shoulder of the fells, in search of some waterfalls. The path was pretty mucky. We climbed through a sheep gate and came under the shelter of a howling fir wood. The wind roared in the trees. We were on the brink of the ravine where the creek jumped, white and grey, through bronze bracken. Beyond the ravine, the hill rose up steeply. Sheep were grazing in the bracken and brown grass. The sky behind was dark and ominous. We decided to turn back as the rain blew down over us.

From Castle Campbell, we drove to Doune Castle, our last stop of the day. The road skirted the edge of the foothills, around Stirling, and right under the big hogback of land where Stirling Castle sits perched. About six miles from Stirling, we found Doune Castle, nestled in a riverbottom with low hills rising around it. Not the most impressive setting, but the castle itself was probably the most fun of all the castles we visited today. Again we went up through a long entrance tunnel under massive walls, with the giftshop tucked into the room where the gate guards would've sat. This castle is made up of a green close surrounded by walls, and it has only one massive building built into the walls themselves. It was the most fun to explore. Rooms and rooms and rooms, one opening out of another. Two or three spiral staircases, with odd half-levels and niches and embrasures. We found a kitchen with an absolutely enormous fireplace, a fireplace the size of a room itself. Above that was a room with brown-and-yellow tiles set in the floor. Then there were halls and halls. In one of them was a big wooden bench intricately carved, dating from the 1600s. Another one of the halls had been restored, and in it were the remainders of a wedding, candles and flowers left behind from earlier in the day. We found all sorts of chambers and rooms and odd crannies. At last the spiral staircase we were following took us out onto the roof, where we could see down over the big walls. Beyond the walls was a band of brown woods, then a town, the church spire poking up through the trees, and beyond that the blue hills, with a windfarm on one of the distant ridges, the white arms of the windmills revolving eerily.

We climbed everywhere. I thoroughly enjoyed myself. The castle, like the other two castles, dates from the late 1300s, early 1400s, but it had been partly restored by the Victorians, who had put beautiful diamond-paned glass in many of the windows. The outer walls of the castle, though, were in a state of disrepair, and are being renovated right now, so we weren't allowed to walk along the parapets. Instead, we went back out through the arched gateway, and walked along a path behind the castle. The River Teith ran full and fast beside us, roaring grey rapids foaming under grey trees. In a bend of the river was a ploughed field, dark earth gleaming damp, and behind it more woods, charcoal grey under the sunshine. We spotted rabbits in the undergrowth along the path, and Mrs. S saw a pheasant running ruddy along a fence. The air was sweetly cold, bracing. It felt good to be outside in the sky and wind, in the country, with the trees and water, and the smell of wet earth.

We walked back to the car and started back to Airdrie. On the way, we made a stop at a monument to David Stirling, a statue stuck (somewhat randomly) in the middle of some fields at the side of the road. The view was beautiful. To the north, the foothills of the Highlands, marching away west and east, their huge fells tumbling down to the fields. In the middle they were dark with clouds, and there on the edge of sight we could see the windfarm, the big white spindly windmills turning and turning. To the west, the sun struck through the clouds as it set, flashing on distant fields, gilding them so that they blazed like shook foil, white and silver. To the east, reflecting the sudden sun, the brown faces of the hills were a living, tawny gold against the dark blue sky behind.

Standing at the monument, gazing over the fields, I saw some stones out in the middle of one of them. "Want to come with?" I called to Hannah and Sis, and they trotted after me. The three of us went out to investigate. We went up a track and then out into the fields themselves, the fresh earth clinging to our shoes as we ran (as lightly as we could) over the new wheat. We ended up in the middle of the field on a sliver of ground left unploughed. Here years and years of grass grew tangled around three standing stones set up in a row. Orange lichen grew on their grey polls. We poked around among them. Standing stones, tilted at odd angles, perhaps, but standing stones nonetheless, jutting facelessly out of the dark earth. The cold wind started to bring tears to our eyes, and then we ran back to join the others.

We drove back to Airdrie. I was surprised at how quickly the drive went past. Back in the house, Mrs. S and Rachel made tea and hot chocolate. Us girls sat at the kitchen table with Mrs. S, who gave Rebekah a Lyle's Golden Syrup cake, which she divided into pieces for everyone. We sat sipping our hot drinks and savoring the sweet sticky cake, which reminded me of molasses. Rachel read the motto on the wrapper, "Out of the eater came something sweet," a quote from Judges.

After we had our snack, Mrs. S and Rachel started work on supper. I helped set the table. Sis was incredibly hyper, so I chased her into the living room, and she and I had a roaringly fun tickle fight, squealing and giggling, until we flopped onto the big leather sofa with a Tintin comic book. I sprawled on the sofa beside her and read over her shoulder, helping her with the big words, until Rachel called us to the table.

Mrs. S had fixed hamburgers and chips (French fries to you) for tea (or supper, whichever you prefer). We discussed hostels and traveling on the Continent. Also, the day's adventures. Mr. S pointed out that we'd gone in alphabetical order today: from Airdrie to Blackness to Campbell to Doune. For dessert, chocolate swiss roll and Mackie's strawberry ice cream. Then Mr. S led us in family worship. We sang Psalm 90, and closed in prayer. After family worship, I washed the dishes, Rachel dried, and Mrs. S put away the food. Rachel told me about the classes she took at OSU last semester.

Then Mr. and Mrs. S made a trip to Tesco. Rachel started to put her sisters through the shower, and loaned me her laptop to keep me occupied meanwhile. Sis was reading to me while I checked my e-mails, until it was her turn in the shower. I sit curled up on the faded velveteen loveseat. Mr. and Mrs. S are back now. Sis is reading an Asterix comic book to herself, turning over the brightly-colored pages. The house with its high ceilings is cold, and the rooms have a certain bareness to them, the bareness of a house temporarily lived in--only a few books on the mantelpiece; a couple of calendars instead of pictures on the walls; rather less than the usual homey clutter on furniture and floors; boxes stowed neatly in corners. I'm pleasantly tired from the day out, still a bit cold and damp, but soon it'll be my turn in the hot shower....

God be with you all, and to all a good-night.

04 March 2008

March 3, 2008

Today I was so tired that I had a huge fight on my hands to stay awake during ENG314. We were studying the Anglo-Saxon Chronicle today and how it's a tool for propaganda. I rather dislike how English professors always put a negative spin on anything one studies, and how they feel compelled to show the "dark side" of all literature by arguing for all sorts of strange ulterior motives in the authorship. After class, I practically sleepwalked over to the gym and went running, which woke me up. I took a shower, made myself lunch, and ate it sitting in the common room with Rachel, Emmaline, Phil, and Steven.

At about three o'clock, Emmaline and I went into the kitchen to start work on tea for tonight. She was fixing orange-and-lemon glazed chicken and sweet potatoes. I helped by washing and slicing the sweet potatoes, and by washing the mountains of dishes in the sink. Rachel ended up coming in and helping with the dishes-washing, and sitting and chatting with us. The afternoon sunshine slanted comfortably through the window past the stark brick walls outside. As the sauce for the chicken bubbled on the stove, the wonderful smell of oranges and ginger started to fill the kitchen, with the sweet smell from the boiling sweet potatoes. Emmaline managed to finish throwing things together just before she had to leave for her four o'clock class.

I went upstairs and did my reading for ENG314, then came back downstairs to preheat the oven (Daphne and Rachel were just starting work on their apple-and-strawberry crumble, which was their Christmas present to me, from vouchers they'd made for everyone back at Christmastime), then back upstairs to practice my flute. Catherine stopped in, and we chatted. She talked about as fast as a cassette recorder on fast forward, giving me a double speed version of her weekend before disappearing upstairs to study. I put the chicken and potatoes in the oven, then forgot myself for a blissful half-hour while I practiced Bach.

When I ran downstairs at half five for tea, I found the kitchen full of people. Phil was there with his two American friends, female college students, who are over visiting on spring break. Joel and Emma were talking about Airdrie in a corner; Rachel and Daphne were supervising their crumble (which was swimming in juice); Andy L. was moving through the crowd trying to fix his tea; Emmaline was watching the cooking of frozen vegetables in a large pot with a fork brandished in one hand.

Catherine, Emmaline, Rachel, Daphne, and I sat down to tea in the kitchen, very delicious. At seven o'clock, I went to CU with Rosemary, Rachel, Daphne, and Lizzie. The sky overhead was deep, deep blue, with the stars shining far and faint in it. Tonight the meeting was the next-to-last in a series of evangelistic talks aimed at answering basic questions about Christianity. The theme was, "God, which one are you?", and was a study of world religions held in the PFC classroom building. The speaker was alright, though he presented so much information that it was rather overwhelming. He sprinkled jokes in occasionally that made everyone laugh: "Christianity is a group of nobodies, who met a Somebody, so that we could all become buddies." "I just want to hug him," Rachel giggled beside me.

We stayed for about forty-five minutes after the meeting finished. Rachel and Rosemary were busy talking to friends who they only see at CU. Beulah came over and chatted with us about formal dresses and the pudding party she's hosting next week. As we were leaving, the speaker came up to us and asked us to tell him what we thought of the talk. Rachel and Rosemary were chatting when a man came up with a question for the speaker. "Sorry to interrupt, girls! Yeah, yeah, run away now, when the American's come!" he laughed in an unmistakeable accent. I felt my face burning as we turned away, Rosemary snickering behind me. "Sometimes I find Americans the most annoying people in the world," I whispered to her as we left the auditorium.

At Renwick, we had Bible study at nine-thirty. A fairly good number of people tonight, between fifteen and twenty. Phil's friends came. Matthew led the study, which was about the armor of God at the end of Ephesians. He did an excellent job. As an aside: He illustrated the belt of truth by telling us that "truth" comes from the Greek word "trulos" because whenever Greek soldiers were in battle, and had gotten spread out among the enemy at the height of battle, they'd shout, "Trulos! Trulos!" to each other and reunite in formation so that they could renew their attack. Everyone gaped at him. "I just made that up," he said, and we all started to laugh--though it meant that later, when he pulled out the illustration of the Roman tortoise formation to explain the shield of faith, Andy M. asked, "Did you make that up, too?" "No, but that's how you should be thinking, testing everything I say to make sure it's true," Matthew replied quickly.

We had prayer times after the study as usual. In our group, which consisted of Emmaline, myself, Daphne, Catherine, Samuel, and Sarah W., we talked about the parts of Ephesians we liked best. Samuel made the excellent point that though Ephesians is full of absolutely immense challenges to the Christian, we have the assurance marked out in such detail at the end of chapter 6 that God has equipped us with all that we need to meet these challenges.

After the prayer time, everyone sat around talking. I talked to Matthew. We actually ended up having quite an interesting conversation: We talked about California, where his dad went on sabbatical one year; about The Chronicles of Narnia, which he's re-reading before Prince Caspian comes out in cinemas this spring; about "ancient literature" (he seems to be of the opinion that I've read all the ancient literature there is). It was good fun to talk about The Iliad, The Odyssey, and The Aeneid since he's read most of them and likes them.

Finally, at little after midnight, people started to leave. I got myself ready for bed, but Emmaline and I stayed up again, talking....

01 March 2008

yesterday

First things first: It's time to wish a very happy White Rabbit Day to everyone!

And I don't think pictures of studying would be very interesting, so that's why most pictures are of socializing. :o)


Now Playing: Bach, Sonata in B minor, BWV 1030, "Andante". Performed by Jean-Pierre Rampal.

February 29, 2008.

This morning was incredibly windy. All yesterday and last night the wind had been blowing, and this morning there was no change, except that the day was more overcast. I walked to ENG309 at ten o'clock. Today we were studying Aelfric and the process of translating the Bible into English, which actually began long before Wycliffe or Tyndale. Aelfric, the primary Bible translator, and King Alfred were both concerned with putting the Bible into the vernacular so that ordinary people could have access to its truths and live accordingly. Aelfric was, perhaps, overcareful since he was always very concerned that the Bible would fall into the wrong hands and be misinterpreted. He didn't trust lay people much at all, though it's easy to see why he thought that no one except the learned clergy could understand the Bible properly: all his sermons are detailed, complex exegetical analyses of Biblical texts in which everything (Christ's crossing the sea in a boat, names, bread, the sea, etc.) has a typological, spiritual reference and nothing is allowed to exist on the purely literal level.

After class, I went to the gym and ran. Or rather, spent twenty minutes running, then fifteen on the bike, then fifteen rowing, until I was heartily bored of the place. But I felt a lot better after having given myself a thorough workout. I went back to Renwick, showered, and was fixing pasta-n'-sauce for lunch when Emmaline came back from her own outing to the gym, flushed and with her hair flying everywhere. As we were sitting and eating lunch, Luke McCollum and his mother walked in unexpectedly. Luke had been in Belfast for a pre-enrollment interview at Stranmillis College. While he went upstairs to change out of his suit, his mother sat and grilled Emmaline with questions about living in Renwick.

After they left, Emmaline and I sat in the common room with Daphne. Samuel and his friend John came in, and Andy L., and Matthew, eventually. Emmaline, Daphne, and I looked at cinema listings on the internet, and Daphne played Dido music videos on YouTube to try to drown out the music Samuel and John were playing on Samuel's laptop across the room.

I went upstairs to study eventually. Emmaline came in and out, taking care of laundry (sniff test!), showering, etc. I read my ENG309 homework for next week and worked on tying off loose ends: e-mailing people at TU about housing and dining for next year, filling out Mortar Board and GO Team forms, etc. Emmaline eventually settled down to read Janette Oke on the sofa cushions in the window. Outside, it grew dark and started to rain.

Emmaline and I finally decided to go out and drive to Tesco for groceries (and ice cream :o). Emmaline dropped me off at Tesco, and she went to find a petrol station. Then, when we got back to Renwick and were unpacking the groceries, realized that we'd both forgotten to buy ice cream. So Emmaline bounced out to find some and to buy ketchup (which Renwick always seems to be out of), leaving me to amuse myself by making an absolute mess in the kitchen, trying to make pancakes. I had my mother's recipe and knew how it ought to have turned out. Problem was that I neither had a griddle nor cooking spray, and, as I soon discovered, making pancakes in an oiled saucepan on the stove is a nasty greasy smoky business. "It's a bit atmospheric in here," was my comment when Emmaline came back. "The smoke's all the way up the house," she told me, which left me no choice but either to laugh or to cry, so I chose the former, and opened all the windows.

Eventually we settled down in the common room with a rather strange looking set of pancakes and various toppings (maple syrup, raspberry jam, etc.) to go on them. We watched Spider-man 2, which Emmaline hasn't seen, and were thoroughly enjoying ourselves when Rosemary rang. She came by to use the internet, and so joined our little party in the common room. After the movie, we had ice cream and donuts, shared with Rosemary. Between occasional bursts of good-natured wrestling with Emmaline, I brought down my laptop and checked train, bus, and museum timetables for my family's visit in March, while Rosemary sat calmly with her computer, laughing at the pair of us and giving me advice about buses to Dublin.

Rosemary left at about midnight, when Emmaline and I went up to bed. She went right to sleep, but I stayed up for awhile, looking out at the stars.

28 February 2008

20 February 2008

lots of language and lots of dishes

Now Playing: Coldplay, "Don't Panic".

Despite all the work we'd gone to yesterday to get our room warmed up, it was still freezing this morning. Ah, well. Emmaline bolted down a bowlful of frosted rice krispies and warm milk (!) before dashing off to her French class. I spent the morning reading A History of the English Language and then going to ENL204 lecture and tutorial. The aforementioned textbook for this class fascinates me: in particular, the lists of words, which tell you when the words were taken into English and why. It's amazing to see the immediate connection between history and language. Reading through the lists of words taken from church Latin, Viking pirates, Norman conquerors, and Flemish tradesmen, one begins to find a sense of the vast richness of the English language. In particular, the number of synonyms: English may appear to have a hugely superfluous vocabulary, but each set of words that seems to mean the same thing is actually a constellation of various shades of meaning, each word with its own set of connotations. For instance, if I were to "ask" for something, that would be quite different from "pleading", "begging", "demanding", or "requiring".

After class, I went back to Renwick, where I found a beautiful little parcel waiting for me on the hall table from Mrs. Parnell and Mary. With her usual artistic care, Mrs. Parnell had drawn colorful flowers on the outside of the package, and inside I found two beautifully made little cards, one from Mrs. Parnell and one from Mary, accompanying a pair of tightly-knit aqua socks. My delight at the creativity of the cards made me immediately want to make something of my own, but unfortunately my repertoire of crafty materials is reduced to whatever colored papers Emmaline happens to have on her shelf and the brush pens I bought at Tesco last fall.

I helped Rachel fix communal lunch this afternoon. She had to be somewhere at one o'clock, so our efforts were frantic, to say the least. Her sister, Lindsey, was visiting, and pitched in along with Daphne, Catherine, Emma, and Linsey. We grilled sausages and had buns ("baps"), onions, and cheese to go along. There weren't many people at lunch today, despite the fact that the boys had a football match this afternoon. I sat between Linsey and Heather and talked with them, Heather chirping away merrily about her classes.

After lunch, Emmaline went to choir. I holed up in my room and talked to Logan on Skype for an hour or so. I hadn't done that in awhile and was treated to an enormous surprise, in the shape of his new beard--! I finished reading the two chapters in the ENL204 textbook, then browsed the news on Google, which was so depressing that I got out my flute and practiced for awhile. I love practicing: concentrating on the circle of sound, not having to think outside that frame of reference, simply listening to each note and seeking to tune it as truly as possible. I'm working on learning Bach Sonata BWV1030, the leaps challenging me because of my lack of practice.

Emmaline came back from choir, and I put my flute away while she was in the room. We studied staidely for awhile, until Sarah W. rang, and I, looking out the window, saw her and Charlotte standing across the street. I opened the window and had a conversation with them while Emmaline wriggled into shorts, and then the three of them went off to the gym. Resigning myself to staying behind, I managed to get about half my homework done. Dusk fell outside, a pale full moon shining like a lidded eye behind thin clouds.

At about five-thirty I went downstairs to start making tea. Emma was in the kitchen as I scrubbed and diced potatoes for mashed potatoes. Soon she went out, though, and I was left alone, humming Psalms to myself as I washed dishes and kept an eye on the boiling potatoes. Emmaline and I had mashed potatoes, sausages, and vegetables for tea--she had had to go by Centra to buy milk, and had bought a couple of little smoothies at the same time, a raspberry-cranberry and a mango-orange, to add some excitement to the meal. Rachel, Daphne, and Charlotte ate with us, keeping Emmaline and me laughing.

After tea, Emmaline and I sat up in our room and "studied". I finished my homework, put new pictures up on my bulletin board, etc., while Emmaline worked on a French translation. At nine o'clock, Pastor and Mrs. McKay, from Shaftesbury Square RPC, came up to Renwick to have a chat with the students. Pastor McKay is the Renwick chaplain, so he gave us a short talk inviting us to come to him whenever we have questions and encouraging us to stay for church on Sabbaths. Mrs. McKay had brought two amazing cakes, chocolate and lemon cheesecake, and we stood around in the kitchen eating and talking. The McKays are kind people, cordial, with warm humor. They stayed for an hour or so. We washed the dishes and put them away, to Mrs. McKay's amazement.

After they left, Andy M., Andy L., Samuel, Rachel, Emmaline, and I stayed in the kitchen, chatting for an hour: Rachel tried to convince us that physics, not math, is the "fabric of the universe"; we talked about why the speed of light is always the same; we told funny stories about circuses, gymnastics, and silly tricks we'd played as children; we laughed about hiking and getting lost in the mountains. We talked about politics, too, and the control of the media. It was great fun just to relax for awhile, without the constant brunt of sarcasm, to tell funny stories and realize just how much we have in common.

The talk ended when Andy M. went up to bed at eleven o'clock. Emmaline and I went back to our room. We read John Cleese's "Letter to America", laughing hilariously. She's attempting to finish her French translation and discussing feminism with me at the same time...!

Good night, or good morning, whichever it is by now.